weekly roundup

this week has come and gone. march is almost peeking its head around the bend.
i've always found march to be one of my favorite months in the year.
but that was because i love spring.
celebrating march, in fall, is a new experience for me.
one that finds me unfit for words.

last night i showed two of my favorite africans The Princess Bride. auntie bekah has become an overnight babysitter. between teaching the little people and staying overnight with nicole and little jacques i realize i am not ready for motherhood.
there is a rather large selfish bit of me that eats away.
eroding the desire to care and nurture.
i find i just want to do what i want.
i want to cook what i want to eat.
i want to sleep till i want to get up.
i want, i want, i want.
life isn't about me.
its not really about the kids either.
i'm sleepy and missed sleeping in on my saturday. but loving; choosing to love, to bless, to care...that is far more noble.
don't i sound so self-sacrificing? don't be confused. i'm not.
i'm missing a movie and the mall, with my friends from town.
i'm sad.
i missed playing games and braai-ing last night with friends from town and the farm.
i'm upset.
sometimes its not about doing what you want, but about honoring commitments that you make.
today, i'm believing that what i sow will be grace and a good attitude.
what i sow in tears (yes, i did almost cry and throw a pity party everyone is doing 'fun' things and i'm stuck babysitting...) will be reaped in joy.
joy is a choice.
outside of circumstance or situation.
i have joy. deep down in my heart.
joy is the little voices calling me to come help paint photos just now.
so i will leave.
and,
here are some links i enjoyed this past week.

i thought this was pretty cool. i know some of the people who shot the footage on the ground. don't forget, Haiti.

this is just adorable. i wanna be them!!

this kid is amazing...and hilarious!

i always knew naps were good for me. VINDICATION! :)

this girl is amazing. help her, here.

what?! who declares war on Switzerland?

this is now my country. this breaks my heart. insert horribly sad face :(

thinking about this quote a lot:

"Why would i defend the Bible? You dont defend a lion - you just let it out of its cage." -Spurgeon