malaria?

i've been sick for a long time. i didn't realize how long till Shawn was telling me its time to see a "real" doctor (as if the mobile clinic wasn't good enough or something?!?!) and i staunchly shot that idea down.

i asked how long i've been coughing and what not and he produced a date that unnerved me.

so i started noticing things more (ya know, in case i really do go see a doctor one of these days. i like to have facts, and dates and such written down for proof i'm not crazy). and if other people are noticing me not being well, maybe i should too? or something like that at least...

since i was paying attention, i realized that i am feeling worse not better and my list of symptoms was growing.

well, today was a new level of crap. :)

i went to the laboratory and got blood work done.
for malaria.
because though we don't have it here on the farm, where i was a few weeks ago is an "infected" area.
and all my symptoms fit.
perfectly.

(of course, i didn't take anti-malaria pills when i was there. i scoff in the face of those babies.)

and everyone was very concerned after matching the timeline for me being at Kruger and my symptoms.
malaria is not to be messed with.
so i found myself off to get bloodwork done.

slept practically the entire way into town and back home.
just can't keep my eyes open!
so sleepy
and achy.

however, i don't think i have malaria.
call my bluff, but i
think i have some sort of sinus infection that triggered my sweet brucella bug and i am relapsing.
makes MUCH more sense to me.
plus, i just like to say
"i'm relapsing."

either way, its not super fun. and i find myself craving:
my favorite comfort food from the states. a blanket; i'm freezing. my mom. a day off. something cold for my head, i'm burning up. someone to get up and pee for me since it hurts to move.
a hammer so i can hit myself over the head with it and be knocked out....

would ya say a prayer that i don't have malaria and that whatever i do have will be cheap to treat and that i will feel like myself again very very soon.
thanks :)

 also, i'm working on my five favorite romantic moments in a movie, and five moments that always make me laugh. i inspired myself last time i posted! :)

and when i say "working" i mean, the idea is in my head and sometime soon i will take steps to make that happen in reality.